What Warren refers to as the guilt that unmans him,
the punishment he finds so sweet. A misery
that likens breathing to grief
and gasping to air; a thousand desires and enticements!
Each one better than the last,
each next one begging more:
to invoke a world, to incite, to condemn,
to be made abject, privy to.
If ever there was a word—it is harrowing.
Akin to apprehension
(the fear that something bad will happen)
but more suggestive of the fear that something
bad already has.

Ordained Servant Online, April, 2024.